- 'cuz I'm not.
But think about it. How many times throughout the course of a day do we shove God aside to monkey with the control panel of our lives?
How often are our decisions made based on what WE want, what WE feel we need, what WE think is best?
All summer I've been doing a lot of soul searching. I realized I've been drawing my own maps and charting my own courses assuming God's approval. I'm a Christian. Jesus Christ dwells within. The Holy Spirit is my guide, so how can I go wrong? Isn't the mere having of those things enough?
Oh, I have all the blessings God promised me when I decided to follow Jesus, but I haven't used them well.
It's not like I don't know how to use them. Wanting to be independent, I chose not to.
Digging deeper, I've discovered a lack of faith.
"It's not fair!" Is my mantra.
"Why me?" Is the oft repeated question.
Over the course of time hope disappears.
Last night in my CBS (Community Bible Study), I came across this sentence in the commentary that accompanies the lesson: "God is not dismayed by our questions, but He cannot be pleased when we question His ability to do what He says He will do."
That, my friends, is the story of my life. I'm asking myself: Do I truly believe God will do what He promises? D0es He really have plans to prosper and not harm me (Jer. 29:11)?
I need to let God be God. Keep my paws off my life. Listen. Be still.
Hard stuff to do for me, but I'm determined to try.